18th May 2012
shive-r:






would you dare look?





yessssssssssssssssssssss 

Would I dare look? No, I wouldn’t. At least, I say that, but do I really mean it? Would I look? Probably. Placed in that situation, I know I would find myself drawn towards that window. I would find myself unable to resist peering through, despite how much I don’t want to look. Deep down, I know I want to know. But even deeper down, I know I don’t want to see it. As much as I am terrified of not knowing what I am doing; of not knowing what I will do, where I will go, or where I will end up, I don’t want the answer. I want to find the answer; I want to live and stumble upon what is to come. I refuse to be told, no matter how much I really want to be.

shive-r:

would you dare look?

yessssssssssssssssssssss 

Would I dare look? No, I wouldn’t. At least, I say that, but do I really mean it? Would I look? Probably. Placed in that situation, I know I would find myself drawn towards that window. I would find myself unable to resist peering through, despite how much I don’t want to look. Deep down, I know I want to know. But even deeper down, I know I don’t want to see it. As much as I am terrified of not knowing what I am doing; of not knowing what I will do, where I will go, or where I will end up, I don’t want the answer. I want to find the answer; I want to live and stumble upon what is to come. I refuse to be told, no matter how much I really want to be.

(Source: Flickr / abbyelizabeth)

15th May 2012

A Creativity Challenge

My mind has been a bit lost and bored lately. I’m rather restless to do something, but am also apathetic to act on anything. I want to be creative; I want to be inspired; and I want to be certain about what I can do. So I’ve decided on a challenge for myself:

I will buy a blank notebook and fill the pages. I hope to do this challenge over the summer, but ideally it will last longer than the next four months. My goal is for the notebook to contain scribbles, musings, or writings which will create inspiration and solidify the ideas in my head which I am failing to grasp.

So far, my possible prompts include:

  • One prominant word
  • A scene in my head
  • Favourite feature of a person
  • Colour
  • Shape
  • Scraps/recycled ideas
  • Poem- original and favourites
  • Quotes
  • Nature
  • Disconnected/odd or free thoughts
  • Emotions- love/sadness/fear/comfort/happiness, ETC…
  • Imperfection
  • Found photographs and ‘stories’ behind them
  • General inspiration
  • Memory
  • Association
  • Miscellaneous
  • Unconventional use of a thing
  • Splashes and splotches, drips and drops
  • Word tree
  • Favourite and least favourite - word, sound, smell, sight, taste, touch, ETC
  • Profanity
  • Stream of consciousness
  • I wish…
  • Make a mess
  • Lines
  • Favourite words from a page
  • Scribble
  • Vandalize something
  • Positive comments
  • Negative comments
  • Censorship
  • Evolution
  • A sign or a note
  • Weather

(I will, naturally, be expanding the list of topics, but any suggestions are welcome.)

25th Apr 2012
ilovecharts:

Day in —- Moment of Epiphany —- Day out 

ilovecharts:

Day in —- Moment of Epiphany —- Day out 

9th Apr 2012

Titty Glitter Cakes: how to decode a person with an anxiety disorder

swamp-goblin:

euclase:

things we are trying to do all the time:

  1. be safe

things we can’t help but do all the time:

  1. second-guess ourselves
  2. behave impulsively and reactively
  3. take everything personally
  4. worry
  5. worry
  6. worry
  7. have difficulty accepting compliments
  8. have difficulty reciprocating friendly gestures
  9. have difficulty finding the courage to respond
  10. have difficulty not being suspicious of others’ intentions
  11. make a huge deal out of the smallest thing

things you should keep in mind:

  1. we’re scared of everything
  2. pretty much all of the time
  3. it’s an actual disorder
  4. it manifests as impulsive behavior
  5. you can’t fix us with words
  6. telling us “worrying is silly” won’t make us stop worrying
  7. it’ll only make us feel silly
  8. and then we’ll worry even more
  9. “oh god, am i worrying too much? what if they call me silly again?”
  10. like that
  11. also, we wear a lot of armor
  12. cold, heavy, affection-proof armor with spikes
  13. we constructed this armor as children
  14. we’re fairly certain you will never be able to pry it apart
  15. but there is a nice person under there, we promise

things you can do for a friend with an anxiety disorder:

  1. stick around
  2. ask them if they’re comfortable in a place or situation
  3. be willing to change the place or situation if not
  4. activities that help them take their mind off of things are good!
  5. talk to them even when they might not talk back
  6. (they’re probably too afraid to say the wrong thing)
  7. try not to take their reactions (or lack thereof) personally
  8. (the way they expresses themself is distorted and bent because of their constant fear)
  9. (and they knows this)
  10. give them time to respond to you
  11. they will obsess over how they are being interpreted
  12. they will anticipate being judged
  13. it took me four hours just to type this much
  14. even though i sound casual
  15. that’s because i have an anxiety disorder

things you shouldn’t do:

  1. tell us not to worry
  2. tell us we’ll be fine
  3. mistake praise for comfort
  4. ask us if we are “getting help”
  5. force us to be social
  6. force us to do things that trigger us
  7. “face your fears” doesn’t always work
  8. because—remember—scared of everything
  9. in fact, it would be more accurate to say we are scared of the fear itself

emergency action procedure for panic attacks:

  1. be calm
  2. be patient
  3. don’t be condescending
  4. remind us that we’re not “crazy”
  5. sit with us
  6. ask us to tighten and relax our muscles one by one
  7. remind us that we are breathing
  8. engage us in a discussion (if we can talk, then we can breathe)
  9. if we are having trouble breathing, try getting us to exhale slowly
  10. or breathe through our nose
  11. or have us put our hands on our stomach to feel each breath
  12. ask us what needs to change in our environment in order for us to feel safe
  13. help us change it
  14. usually, just knowing that we have someone on our side willing to fight our scary monsters with us is enough to calm us down

if you have an anxiety disorder:

  1. it’s okay.
  2. even if you worry that it’s not okay.
  3. it’s still okay. it’s okay to be scared. it’s okay to be scared of being scared.
  4. you are not crazy. you are not a freak.
  5. i know there’s a person under all that armor.
  6. and i know you feel isolated because of it.
  7. i won’t make you take it off.
  8. but know that you are not alone.

This is relevant, so relevant.

3rd Apr 2012

Question:

What inspires you?

2nd Apr 2012

(Source: imgfave)

18th Mar 2012

It Is Through Reading That “I Go To Seek The Great Perhaps”

I am writing as a response to the recent ‘outrage’ that is being felt towards John Green’s novel “Looking for Alaska” being taught as a required reading in Knox County High Schools’ English class (RE: this article here.) I have been moved by the comments and ideas shown towards this piece of work and, in brief, the reason I am writing this is not simply because I myself read and enjoy the works of John Green but because, as a student perusing an English degree, I find what is being said about this book an offence against what English studies is about: providing individuals with material to not only make them think, but to have them question the society and world they are a part of, and to develop an open minded way of looking at ideas.

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11th Mar 2012
dftbashortstorycontest:

Reblog this if you are definitely planning to take part in the DFTBA Short Story competition.

dftbashortstorycontest:

Reblog this if you are definitely planning to take part in the DFTBA Short Story competition.

7th Mar 2012

heswearingafez asked: DO YOU BITE YOUR THUMB AT ME SIR?!

Aye, that I do.

4th Mar 2012

If anyone takes any sort of interest…

I have just put together a ‘blog’ thing specifically for my photography. Have a look if you are so inclined. Naturally, there isn’t much there at the moment, as I have just set it up today, but I think it will likely be more interesting than what goes on here.

Thank you :)

http://mundaneperspectives.tumblr.com/